This one's for me.

I have the perfect life. Now anyone who knows me might question this statement, but they'd be wrong. For all the poor choices I've made, bad luck and disappointments I've suffered, I can still look over my life and my conclusion is the same. I've lived the perfect life. For me. Perhaps not for you or anyone else for that matter, but for me it's been perfect. The choices I've made, right and wrong, were mine to make and I made them. If there's any blame to be had it's mine and mine alone. I've created what I wanted to created, loved the perfect people and been loved in return. I've lived and explored and hoped and tried and I've had a great time doing it all. If my life were a movie, it'd be my favorite film of all time, having all the excitement, romance, horror, mystery and comedy I'd ever want.

If I were to die today I'd die happy. Content. Perfectly. I look back over my life and all I can see is that fantastic time I've had. Now I'd have loved to have the good times last longer and the struggles perhaps of a much shorter duration than they've been. I'd have enjoyed a bit more recognition, a few more bucks in my pocket and a couple of more adventures but life isn't so much about what you have as much as it is about what you've done. Life isn't about what didn't happen as much as it is about what did. My life has been perfect for me. I was blessed to live the life I desired. What more could anyone ask for?

In the end, in the very end, after all is said and done, does everyone live the perfect life for them? Even the most dreadful, most horrible and pitiful lives? I'd like to think so. I'd like to believe that there is a place where life continues. A place where we can see that our time spent here in this world isn't the be-all and end-all of our existence but merely one piece in a much larger puzzle.

Life is a horrid, terrible, heart-breaking experience filled with lost love and lost dreams and a great deal of fear. Life is also perfect.

I am one fortunate guy. Maybe not so much in the life I've lead but in my ability to see it as it is ... perfect.

If this post has left you scratching your head and wondering what in the world I'm going on about, don't worry. Like I said, this one's for me. When life gets difficult and times rough, I want to remember what a perfect life I've had. I want to remember to enjoy the bits and pieces of it and enjoy the adventure of the unknown. You probably should too. Or you can have a beer and watch "Dancing with the Stars". It's up to you. Your choice to make.

Right now I want to relax and enjoy being me.